yo! im back to blog! after soooo long! yep.. it has been a great struggle and i have been reflecting upon my life.. i am really glad to know Christ personally! it's tiring at times, painful.. but at the end of the day, i have the joy that the world cant give.. somehow i realised God's anointing is back! i actually didnt know that God can minister to myself and even the others through the guitar.. now i understand how did jeslyn- my 1st shepherd can play the guitar so well that it can be so ministering.. i have been wondering how to start to play softly& loudly on the guitar.. and now i know le! it's actually when the Holy Spirit leads, we will just play it naturally.. we just have to be sensitive to the Holy Spirit.. quite true.. in this world we can be so distracted by the things around us that we forgot to focus on what's more important. somehow, after being dry for so long.. i believe that God reassures me that there's going to be revival in sp.. that He wont just let cls continue to be like that.. God is faithful no matter what happens! what happened yesterday is simply so amazing!! somehow i realise i have been in sitting and standing in the wrong position for a very long time on mon last week.. i have an illness called scoliosis since primary 1. i think many people dont know.. coz that time i was still dancing.. i stopped as actually not because about the cost, not about i cant cope, not because i dont like the teacher.. it's because i wanted to go for service rather than dancing as both timing clashes.. i know it is God's calling for me to be His child.. so i gave up on ballet even though i did untill the highest grade.. i have been thinking was it a wrong decision to choose God over ballet? if not i can have want i wanted.. fame.. or even achievement, can be a teacher le.. or even have more money le.. i have been faithful.. not enough? but then now somehow God told me to go back to ballet.. i dont understand.. i gave up because of Him now He wanted me to go back.. is He trying to make fun of me? and i have been finding for ballet classes which are affordable..it was after sermon.. altercall.. when everyone responded.. i was telling God that my back is painful but i have to get it back to shape before it becomes worse.. i am going to trust in Him.. then i suddenly felt something moving.. the muscle on the left side of my body which has been real stiff up since last week.. loosened!!!!!!! i opened my eyes and i saw my specs is in line with the words on stage! God is amazing!!! He healed me somehow! it's unexplainable!! but ya!! i really experienced God's healing on my back! then God taught me something.. He taught me to trust in Him rather than the things that can help only for a short term.. He taught me to dance for Him rather than dance for myself.. to do things for Him and not myself.. wow! i understand why i have to go through all these le.. and i made an oath with Him to do things for Him rather than myself.. to show the love that He has for me to the others.. somehow... He humbled me.. and then i got to know that faithfulness is good but not good enough.. somehow it's how much we believe and trust in Him even when we dont understand and obey.. it's about the heart.. thank you Lord!! i understand le! it's tough but im going to continue to trust in you! God slowly heal my heart.. and im glad and never regret my decision to know Him! :>