im back to blog.. it's been a huge struggle.. to trust God in this particular area.. i remembered i prayed for about 3 years to clarify.. 2 years to ask God to reveal to me what and why this thing happen.. and yes.. God somehow revealed to me slowly.. i dont wanna give up. i wanna continue to grow.. it's time... on saturday, i was going to ps with shawn, ryan, wanting and pooi yee... then yep.. had to buy things that i need by the 5pm.. i remembered how i walked away to cool down..firstly i went to the tangs place to buy toner.. then when i stepped into the ballet store to buy the toepad.. i heard.. "Holy Holy..." then i was stunned... i felt so peaceful in the presence of the Lord.. i bought the cheaper toe pad.. as i was walking back after buying everything.. i talked to God.. it's a long walk from tanglin shopping centre to cuppage plaza.. i realised.. sermon which is preached by Pastor Jeff really blew my mind off.. during alter call.. there was this question.. have God shortchanged you when you put your trust in Him? my answer is no.. i recalled how i prayed for His strength during cycling with my classmates.. He gave me the strength that i became the first in the line from the last.. then i recalled how randall challenged me... i know i cant always remain like that..