Back to blog.. it’s been quite a long time since I blog.. really enjoyed the time I spent with my ex- stc cg…the ex- stc cg have six people still continuing growing well in the Lord.. The names are Allison Agnes Joanne, Denise Weiting, Julia Meirong, Jeslyn, Yiyou and me- Janelle Levitys.. really miss those times where we struggled and played together.. Though I was sick and very tired after exams.. my heart just want to meet the people at cine leisure after my exams which is at 8.15pm.. yes.. we had a great time catching up on the our different lives in cine leisure the japanese restaurant.. we took photos.. haha! Long time didn’t take photo with them.. Now we are in different ministries and groups but I am very glad to see how we have the same goal in our lives to put God in the center of our lives.. really glad to see jeslyn growing in the Lord! Believed it has not been easy for her but ya.. thank God that she is really getting more and more mature in the Lord! There is this joy in my heart to see this ex- sheep growing well! yep.. she has learnt a lot through the years! She is more open and more joyful as well! haha! Besides catching up, we celebrated yiyou’s bday! What a weird cake.. haha! A pie as the cake and a knife as the candle! It’s amazing that she has the same bday as baorun! We laughed a lot and shared a lot as well.. haha! Had a lot of fun as I ate my dinner at another Japanese restaurant.. then prayed for yiyou.. each person prayed a different point for her.. really glad to see her desire to grow to be more mature in Christ! So cool.. What’s more surprising is that they also prayed for me to get well soon and recover from my flu.. really didn’t expect that! Thank God for u all! I really felt so loved! it’s really amazing to see God moving in each of our lives to make us stronger and more mature in Him.. drank ice lemon tea during dinner.. didn’t know that it can keep me from sleeping the night.. really cant sleep.. so I started to think when I was lying on my bed.. images of the past flashed in my mind.. amazingly now, it is not about the hurt… it’s about how God brought all of the ex-stc sg through it all.. the images of how we struggled to make cg fun.. to learn to lead.. to learn new skills..to manage our relationships.. There were images of the sweet moments as well.. we are having fun! And everyone is like laughing out loudly! How we played games and chiong all out for God in stc! I am really glad to be part of this! God is a faithful God.. God will provide and that whoever believes in Him will have eternal life.. Somehow, God continued to encourage me to share His amazing love to the people around me and not give up.. whenever I see the people in this group.. I see God’s amazing grace and love upon me.. I am really glad to say that I have grown to know God even more and experience the fullness of His love.. God told me when I was still on my bed.. that He is with me.. so continue to do what I am called to do despite having many stuggles.. there was this stirring in my heart that God is calling me to “go! All out for Him!” I remembered how I cried out to Him for help whenever I struggle.. it’s really painful.. I told God.. “it is painful.. so painful.. it just breaks my heart and I am getting hurt everywhere I go”.. then God asked me.. “How do you feel whenever you see the people in stc growing closer to Him?” I answered “there is this amazing joy that I cant find anywhere else whenever I see them”.. then God said to me.. “yes.. so go.. and I will use you to rock sp like how you rock stc.”. wah! It’s really amazing! Really amazing! God encouraging me not to give up… to impact the people in sp like how I impact the people in stc.. somwhow, I realize.. about what baorun said about me in the library… that I have negative thoughts.. negative thoughts are from the devil.. yes.. I am distracted by all these.. now focus on God! And the vision! God! Let the vision come to pass in sp! It’s time to stock take and grow even stronger! I thank you for all the people in my life.. God, pls continue to reveal to me your plan for me.. and yes, use me Lord that your will be done.. in Jesus name. Amen.